"To vlog or not to vlog, that is the question"

I've developed a recent urge to make and edit videos. It could just be a fad considering i've been binge watching youtubers for a while. Not so long ago i was asked to edit a video for the senior year graduation. I was expected to make a rough-amatuer video in less than three hours. Considering i did not even know what button did what, i took up the challenge nonetheless. I do not know how, but i got the basic functionality of the video editor in a matter of minutes and i was off excitedly making a, what turned out to be a pretty fun(ny) video. That was probably when i realized i really liked editing videos.

[Watch the video i made if you like]

Then of course my obsession with youtube studstars. I've always found it extremely interesting that a bunch of normal people talking about their somewhat normal life are treated like celebrities. Of course it's not just rant rant rant, they make ordinary things sound extraordinary with humour and well-timed wit. I consider myself a mediocrely funny person. By mediocre i mean hella lot. (strangle me now) Honestly who doesn't right? RIGHT?! Right. I do have some ideas for videos that i think are good. But is that enough? I thought, Hey! There are no vloggers/ youtubers from india. Maybe its an unventured area that should be utilised. BUT, maybe no one has ventured here because of the lack of audience? What if i can actually make this a fruitful venture? What if i can't? Questions like these eating my brain away, whilst the opportunity i may or may not have slips from my fingers.   I think i may just give it a go. I don't have anything to lose, but i may have much to gain. Aren't i right?

My last academic year of degree college just started. I have a tendency to forget really unforgettable and happy memories. Yes, i somehow manage to do that. No, I am not proud. It makes me mad! So i can combine the need to remember with my urge to vlog and make a sort of video-memoir of my last year of college. Is this or is this not a good idea? Hopefully i can step out of my comfort zone soon and start doing things instead of blog-complain about them! Send me positivity people! THANK YOU!

[moi]

{soz having a bad hair day}

On The Edge

I do not know if it's the lack of power naps for the past two days or my dry social life in general. I have been surrounded by people constantly for the past two days and i pray that is not the reason for my annoyed state of mind. Everything is pissing me off. I don't want to study about notional and actual profits. Who actually cares about notional and actual profits? I want to sleep. SLEEP. There are cockroaches everywhere and I think I've stepped on and killed dozens of those bastards.

I just want to go home. Sleep in my own bed! In silence (probably with some good music yeah). I don't want guests home. I usually don't mind, but not presently. But my mom is in quite an inviting mood. Probably means I have to share my room? I'm sharing and caring a lot.
Stupid TV soaps are stupid. So unnecessarily loud and dramatic. I want to slap the TV screen.
I'm hungry. There's no food at home. Don't want to go out. I'm not sorry.
What is my future? Why is money important? Where has all the fun gone?

I'm so behind schedule i might just fail. So much to complete. So little time. So many mood swings. What is life? SIGH

Mid-week at grammys!

I have a major exam coming up in two weeks and I'm unable to take it seriously.  So I decided it would be a good idea to get out of my comfort zone and try get some studying done at my grammys! My granny currently lives with her son, daughter-in-law and granddaughter, who've gone out on vacation and have requested my mom and my aunt to stay with her while they were gone and i joined them. My granny had a knee replacement surgery and has trouble getting around. Watching her struggle breaks my heart, having seen her actively walk around and now having to watch her unable to do so is painful to me, as much as it is for her. Listening to her talk about her life now puts things in perspective. Setting things off in my mind. I want to be able to help my parents in their old age and not abandon them! But my plans in life will take me away from them and that makes it hard for me to make decisions. Hopefully I find a way to make this all work.